Sleeping alone...a love story
I met Micah at a casino. He was a security guard and I was a blackjack dealer. I remember the first time I saw him. I was walking with some other dealers to an upstairs break area. Micah passed...
View ArticleSkunks, S'mores and Dayquil
Last week I started coughing. There have been wildfires burning in the area so I assumed it was the smoke. That cough turned into a violent choking hack. Most moms will tell you that part of the...
View ArticleI don't have a best friend
That seems like a strange title doesn't it. I received a message from an old friend just now and it made me think about friendships. We haven't spoken to each other in almost 10 years now. I am...
View ArticleONE MONTH!!! But did anything change?
Today it has been one month since I started this blog.(Coming Clean) As of right now I have 2107 page views. Wow!! To many professional bloggers that may seem like a small number. For me that is...
View ArticleWhy I quit my job
I was a 911 dispatcher. It's not a glamorous job. It's not a job that you dream of as a child. And it's definitely not a job that anyone can do. When someone would ask me what I did, they would...
View ArticleCandles,prayers and, yellow ribbon
My son was not the first baby boy I fell in love with. I have only 1 nephew but he wasn't the first either. I was almost 7 when I met the first baby boy I would love. My cousin Tavo. He was so...
View ArticleWhat's my name
My birth certificate says my name is Adriana Enriquez Fabela. If you ask my mother how she chose my name she'll tell you she heard it on a coffee commercial while in the hospital. If you ask my dad...
View ArticleI'm disappointed....let's toast to me!
I hate writing this post. I made a decision when I started this journey that I wanted to be brutally honest. In my life I have been told more than once that I was honest to a fault. Sometimes my...
View ArticleThe Road Dragon
The Road Dragon is a truck...a 1978 Chevy Silverado and she's parked in my driveway. She is more than a truck to me. She belonged to my uncle....Well he wasn't actually my uncle. My father had 5...
View ArticleI saw her
I saw her tonight as I curled my hair. I saw her as I ran the mascara across my lashes. I saw her in the reflection of car door as I crossed the street. There was a bounce as I walked and a...
View ArticlePlease smack me!
Not literally. I say this because I know the loved ones who follow this blog might be giggly and excited at the thought of smacking me. I wanted to spend the afternoon with some girlfriends at an...
View Article#suicideawarenessday
The first time someone told me I was depressed was in high school. Although, it was not the first time I had felt the dark sad space. I remember that feeling like a pit in my stomach pulling me...
View ArticleMy first love
My first love was not a boy or a man. Sorry to disappoint...it wasn't a woman either. My first love was music. Listening to it of course...but I loved to sing. I remember singing Silent Night in...
View ArticleI was a single mom......38 days later
My husband is a firefighter. This summer he has been gone far more than he has been home. The fire season started for him the first week of June. He started his normal shift and a fire broke out....
View ArticleBirthday girl
Last year for my 33rd birthday I asked everyone to come and do the Race for a Cure in San Francisco with me. I didn't want to waste money on dinner or a party. I wanted the money to go toward...
View ArticleGROW SOME BALLS!!!
If you are hoping for the warm and fuzzy trying to be happy post I normally write.....this is not the post for you. I am trying to be a happier person all around. I want my children to have a...
View ArticleAutumn will bring change
I didn't sleep at all last night. I feel like I've been saying that a lot lately. Is it an age thing? Once you get to a certain age you just sleep less. My mind keeps we awake, too many lists of...
View ArticleChicken scratch,love and,CRAZY!
I spent the morning cleaning and organizing and came across my old journal. I suck at journaling. I check my life history according to old facebook or myspace posts. When reading through my journals I...
View ArticleNO MORE BULLSH*T!
Ok I have been lying to you. Even worse I have been lying to myself. I realize that I haven't written a post in such a long time because I didn't do my homework. Let me explainWhen I was in high school...
View ArticleFat Friday
So I did promise to take pictures of myself. I hyped myself up! Promised no bullshit...took a couple shots and cried like a baby. It's really hard to admit what you have been ignoring for a really long...
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